Have you ever had a beautiful dream and suddenly you wake up from that? It felt like that, sometimes you have to make a certain decision because you want to save yourself from the heartache later on but then it turns out that this heartache right now might be far worse. Your actions get mobilized and it’s you just a walking body without a soul. This hole gets bigger and emptier with each second.
I am barely holding on, I have no idea if I could survive ahead. Being the optimistic soul I am, I make myself believe that better days are coming but along with that, I have this impending fear that I won’t make it. because these aches are damn hurting. People start asking what is wrong with you why are you being like that, so in order to escape from those questions, you pretend to be fine and act like everything is on spot for you. While pretending you get so good that there comes a point where no one could tell the difference, your eyes beg those few individuals to just catch that vibe and see the real hurting you but no one does.
So you hurt alone and suffer in silence. Those tears that are shed behind closed doors, you are the one who wipes them yourself.
