Black or White
It takes all my energy to not ask what is the delay this time? What is there really to think it through , it’s not like it’s something new or something you don’t know about. It frustrates me how you lead me on and then push me back. You run away when things get too intense. Do these feelings scare you? Do they make you insecure somehow? Me wanting absolutely nothing but you and leaving everything for you? Does it get intense for you? Does reality hit you in the face like , oh no I was just flirting and talking for hours even though i like this but i cannot make anything serious of it, this is right?
Love in the hands of anyone but a coward. Cause people who cannot risk out for love should not be given a chance to play with it. You dangle candy in front of a toddler , you both play with it with you holding it high and the toddler jumping around for it. Laughing and having fun. Toddler expects this fun to be temporary and hopes to have that candy soon, yet when the time comes you shove it in your pocket and go away. It feels exactly like this, you give me hope for us and then you walk away. It’s always a test of patience for me, to understand your reasoning. But this time I really don’t have much time left, like you have priorities for which you leave me for , I have made some promises too, can’t do anything about them. Don’t say I did not tell you sooner , I am here waiting for the last time for you to come and be straight up with me with your intentions. Clear and concise, black or white, yes or no. Nothing in the grey area, not anymore.