Not Enough Courage

Ever happened to you that you wanted to do something but you didn’t have the courage to do so? like your ego was in the way. The hardest thing for a person with ego is that they know that they have done wrong some where or with someone else but even so they cant go back and apologize to them and this is only because of their damn ego. I experienced something same along these lines ,although i don’t like to think myself as an egoistic person but in this particular matter i feel so that this is the very reason. While going through with this life of mine ,getting hurt was part of the regular deal but hurting someone else wasn’t. And that’s what exactly happened.By being hurt i non willing hurt the person who was very close to me. Being stubborn as hell, i remained to this fact that i was right and they were at fault like always.It took me a little longer to realize my mistake,and i could have never realized this unless i missed them from being always around me. It felt like i ache for the very presence which i once hated with such passion. But who could tell when this blazing hate of mind turned into feelings of love. I do want to apologize to them and bring them back in life, but it seems like all of my courage has left me all alone to fight my battle on my own. I wish they can come back ,so i can tell them how much they mean to me. Days are passing by ,but my hope is getting even more stronger with the each passing by hour. Its like my heart says, they will come back, and with the very thought in my head , i sleep with a smile every night.

An impulsive and impatient personality who has the most bizarre ideas related to this world and beyond. I sketch , paint and write to burn my thoughts, this is the only thing i feel peace at.I am an avid dreamer in the day, an aspiring novelist by the night, hopeless romantic & a certified bookworm. Books provide me an escape from this world , aside from that i am a boxer, who loves to knock out teeth for anger release. And yeah football is my passion!

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