3:00 am thoughts
People who are into art always have this sensitive side. Artists are naturally sensitive. We wouldn’t be artist if we weren’t overly sensitive to the world. Because we use our art as an outlet to express ourselves when we can’t process all the emotions. So when you are so overwhelmed by the emotions, you just literally shutdown and be numb cause you can’t feel anymore because you felt too much in the first place. It’s like the breaker in the electricity box as soon as it hits the set limit just a notch before it could snap or break, the device shuts off itself so it doesn’t sever and damage everything else. The pain switch kinda works like that, you keep taking digs at your heart. Massive blows one by one and then suddenly you shutdown , you don’t feel anything at all. No feeling of hurt or sadness or even happiness. It’s those i don’t care states that you don’t mind anything, because you don’t feel anything. Like those lab rats lying in the box sedated , partially alive and you poke needles in them and they just lie there and do nothing because they are so medicated that they can’t feel anything. That’s the worst feeling ever , to not feel anything at all. To stop fighting for what you really want, it’s like your surrender yourself to all the pain and hurt and be like yeah okay hit me with the beat shot you got cause i don’t feel anything no more. It’s like your body is alive and the soul vanishes.