Lose you to love me
So there I was moving on with my like, satisfied to some extent and suddenly you popped in out of nowhere, I haven’t seen yours or ours this picture before that came before me. And it haunted me that whole night. The way you were looking at me while I was lost in thought and we were sitting next to each other, brought an insane amount of painful memories. I mean what amazes me is that you move on, you get into new relationships but somewhere hidden there are memories that have the power to haunt you even if you are way past that period.
I would like to call that a fleeting emotion but what struck me is how something that you have clearly moved on from can affect you even for a single second. I have been in 2 relationships after that and the recent one was what I have been looking for all my life but didn’t turn out well but still how can something that has been buried pops out like that as if it never left.
I lost you and what we had, and I did regret that for a while but then things changed and I was no longer upset over the circumstances or why we couldn’t work. My life needed that shock so I could boost and be mature like I am now. And all these months I was nothing but thankful that whatever happened at least in the long run it was beneficial for me. But is there any way one can erase those past moments? Like I don’t even want to feel vunerable like that again even if it is just for a few moments or a night.